My ex broke up with me 6 months ago. Claimed I was abusive. I felt guilty, but I was also in very intense denial.
I looked back in our chats today. I’ve already vomited out pure guilt. I was so f****** abusive towards him. I feel like s*** and i want to kill myself. I see no point in living when I treated another human being lesser than dirt. I’m very erratic so I’ll probably feel better later. He has already told me he has forgiven me, but it still eats at me. Nobody knows how truly vile I was. Everybody blames him for “breaking my heart” when I broke this man. I destroyed him. He has somebody else now, but I put him through over a year of emotional abuse. I hate myself.