When I seven years old, I was alone in my aunt’s apartment with my maternal uncle (14). My aunt and cousin were at the shops or somewhere. We were busy playing around in the apartment, doing nonsense. He then asked me to one of the rooms upstairs. So I followed him without thinking anything about it. We went into a room which I clearly remember. He then asked if I could lie on the bed, so I did. He than slid down my pants and slid down his. He then started penetrating my v***** and I don’t remember the feeling. All I remember how long it was, a few seconds. After that, it hurt like hell. I remember taking a shower for the first time in my life (don’t worry, I’ve only taken baths until that point) and hated the feeling. The worst part is that eight years later I want to do it again with him. But I’m scared because he parties a lot and I’m not sure if he’ll use protection. Especially because I live in South Africa, one of the countries with the highest HIV rates. I’m also worried if I might get pregnant at 15, and have a child at 16. And I know I wouldn’t want to have an abortion and have a difficult time giving it up for adoption because I’ll get too close to the baby very quickly. Another worry concerning the pregnancy thing is that children born out of i***** have are at high risk of getting genetically transferred illnesses, conditions and diseases. And I have a young cousin with ceberal palsy. Can things get worse.
