(true story) I sneaked into my aunts room and fingered her.

I have a big family and have lived with several aunts and cousins throughout my childhood. Having a big family and being relatively poor meant sharing beds with cousins and aunts. I have been especially obsessed with one of my aunts on my dads side for a reason I cannot understand to this day. As I went through puberty I would get extremely flushed and h**** whenever she would get close to me. She was akin to me maybe because I was the first child on my dads side. My cousins (her 2 kids) were just a few years younger than me and I used to spend weeks at their house.

I would go through her dirty laundry and smell her dirty p****** which drove me crazy. After spying on her a couple times after her taking showers and watching her change I couldn’t take it any more and one day I was so h**** and out of my senses that I did something that could ruin my days forever.

I’ve always been a night owl so I waited until my cousins fell asleep and patiently waited until my aunt went to seep as well. I waited patiently until about 2am and my heart was pounding hard from what I was about to do.

I got up slowly from my bed and made my way to her room…the door was ajar and I opened it slightly to check if she was sleeping. I heard deep breaths and slight snoring which signaled that she was in deep sleep. I opened the door slowly in the dark and law on the floor next to her bed on my back. My heart pounding even harder….

I lifted covers softly to sneak my had in very slowly. She used to sleep with a long cotton gown. As I slid my hand under the covers I finally reached her gown. My heart started pounding even harder….I patiently began to pull it upward little by little as to not wake her up. Finally I reached the end of the gown. I paused for a second to think that if I went further it could have grave consequences. It was like something took over me and I couldn’t stop.

She was sleeping in a fetal position with her a** facing me. My hand started to move again until it felt warm soft flesh. Her inner thigh. I paused once again to watch for any movement since it a quite a sensitive part of the body but the muffled snores continued….

It was a signal to keep moving up which I did. My fingers felt irradiating heat which meant only one thing, I was only millimeters from the most forbidden part of her body. I was so aroused I thought my p**** and my chest would explode….

Finally I felt a cotton pouch with wiry hairs around it, I could not believe it. At this point my head started pounding too. I probed around taping slightly thinking she would wake up at any moment but nothing.

Then I did the unthinkable. I noticed it was a cotton thong. I pulled it ever so slightly to the side. I thought she would wake up but I was so aroused I did not think clearly about the consequences. Finally I slid the tip of my finger between her v***** folds. I felt hot and wet folds of flesh. Slowly I slid my finger inside. Her v***** became more wet and I automatically slid another finger inside her. I felt around the hot, moist folds of flesh.

Finally I panicked and I could not take it any more. I licked my fingers and immediately began to m********* right there on the floor, it took only a few seconds to have one of the most intense ejaculations of my life.

But here’s the most important part. The second time I tried it she woke up…I pretended to be asleep on the floor. She poked me and said “hey!, what are you doing?” I got up like a zombie and went to my bed without saying anything. The next morning she made breakfast form me and my cousins and both acted like nothing happened and never spoke about it. I don’t know if she remembers and I hurt her. I surely feel terribly guilty about it….