my dad has been addicted to prescription pain killers sense i was 13 (im 20 now). the prescriptions make him crazy here are just afew examples: making me pick out which of the family pets i liked the most so he knew wich one to kill if i misbehaved, gathering me and my siblings in the living room specifically to watch him and my mom fight, he might have killed my dog, tossing my mom out of the house at 2 a.m. because she fell asleep on the couch, and he almost shot himself in front of my handicap brother. afew years ago he started injecting the pain killers instead of just taking the pills, i remember kicking him out of the house because i caught him injecting in front of my handicap brother. there is alot more that he’s done but by now im sure you get the idea… now why is this under guilt you might ask? well recently i moved away from my home town and away from my family… my father has guardianship of my handicap brother… and i just left.. my dad has been to rehab several times now and claims that he’s clean but… i dont trust him.. im the f****** worst sibling, but even if i wanted to i cant take care of my brother, i just f****** cant. iv been caring for that kid sense i was 16 and just the thought of taking care of him full time again makes me go into a panic attack.
