I know Im not the best person I can be. I’ve done questionable, toxic, manipulative things. I’ve ruined friendships with bad behavior and literally repulsing those I’ve hurt. I’ve tried to do better but I relapsed and Im having a tough time. Im trying though. I wish people I’ve hurt would forgive me but their comforts and suspicion matters much more than me getting a pat on the back. I won’t pursue further but I really wish I can fix my mistakes.