I don’t know what to do.
The love of my life, my whole world, lives 500 miles away, he’s committing a slow suicide and I can’t do jack s***.
I want so bad to see him happy, to see him at all again and it f****** hurts so bad to know he’s so far away suffering alone, I already warned his father but he isn’t doing anything, and doing so hurt my loved one’s trust in me.
We only talk by message and he said he’s going to stop replying at some point and I can’t handle the thought of life without this beautiful fucked up boy in it, it’s too much to bear, the panic attacks, the uselessness I feel, the fear and loneliness are going to get the better of me at some point, I just hope he’s there waiting for me when I follow after him.

My eyes hurt from crying so much. If you’re out there, anyone having a bad day, know it must be better than mine.
Please, tell your loved ones how much you care for them, because you never know what’s going to happen in this fucked up existence.