I lost my virginity at 9 years old, and I am 12 now… idk what to do or how to tell my dad and my mom. My parents are divorced so it just seems harder for me to tell the story twice than once in front of both of them. I feel like I betrayed my parents by having s** with a 14 year old. Its been 3 years and its still all I can think about. I remember it so clearly. The day before I searched up p*** because I heard people talking about it but I didn’t know what it was and it made me feel really h**** and curious, and the whole rest of the day I was watching it on private browser on my iPad with earphones, so the next day I was at the mall with my mom and I told her I would be right back because I saw this “hot” guy. I went up to him and I was like, “Hey wanna have s**.” He was by himself and I guess he didn’t know that I was 9 years old, so he was like, “Damn lets do it.” My mom was talking on her phone about work at the time, so me and him went to the one room bathroom things, and he pulled down his pants, and his d*** was really hard, and I remembered what I saw in the p*** videos and I started sucking on it. it was really hairy but I didn’t care. I was just starting puberty and I had some b**** and p****, but the guy didn’t care. he took of my shirt and my training bra and started sucking o my b**** and it felt really good, but at the same time I felt bad. then I took off my pants and I sat on him and we did it for a few minutes, and then we pulled up our pants and walked out of the bathroom pretending like we didn’t know each other and when my mom asked what happened, I just told her I had to go to the bathroom and I still can’t believe she believed me. I still feel really guilty and idk what to do.