I’ve been with my boyfriend for 8 years, since I was 19 and he’s a wonderful guy and my best friend. However, I have been feeling s***** for some time now, about life in general and about our relationship. Last year I cheated on him for the first time and it was one of the most exciting experiences ever. Falling in love again and being liked and admired by someone else (especially someone as gorgeous as that guy) was amazing. We haven’t stayed in touch after and I even partially confessed this to my bf, but I couldn’t tell him the whole truth. The worst part is- even though I feel guilty about cheating, I also don’t regret having done it since those 10 days were the happiest I’ve felt in many years. I can’t stop thinking about this guy. And the worst thing is- I’m supposed to get married in 2 months time and it’s the last thing I want to do, but I’m doing it to make my boyfriend happy since he’s wanted to do it in ages. I’m terribly dissappointed in myself and my lack of courage to either tell him the whole truth and bear the consequences or finally break up with him and let go of the best person I’ve ever met.