I didn’t want my first child. I married a girl before I’d ever had s** before. From a very religious background. She wouldn’t take birth control. I just wanted s**. When she got pregnant it was expected. I hated my wife for not using birth control and I hated that my first child messed up my ability to focus on a career. I have been struggling ever since. The career I chose never got off the ground, because I had to become a family man. I don’t feel this way about my wife or child now, but I feel so guilty that our relationship started this way.
