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I see posts here about circumcision. My Mother had me circumcised because I abused my shaft way too much. I should have obeyed Mother’s rules but I didn’t. I broke the rules and rubbed my shaft raw. It got infected several times. Then I lied to Mother and said I didn’t abuse it. I got caught many times and got punished with the paddle or the leather belt, which stopped me for the day but then I would play with it again and tug on it and pull it.

I went to the restroom in school to play it. I got poor grades and disobeyed Mother on everything. Finally she had enough and decided to get me ‘fixed’. I was taken to the doctors and put up on a table and then the straps were put around me. I couldn’t move and they examined my shaft and balls. Others came in and examined me. They put a catheter up my erection. They took pics of me spread wide open on their examining table. There were a lot of them there with their iPhones taking pics. It was embarrassing.

Then they cut my shaft. The doctor talked to others who were students learning to do their first circumcision. They each cut a little. Mother was there and she told them to take more off. It took so long because they took turns and they talked and examined. It was so painful and I passed out. They put a rubber piece in my mouth. I peed from the pain but it went into the catheter. I promised I would never touch it again. I begged them to stop cutting it. But Mother told them to get it all cut off. They did what she said and skinned it and slide the skin down the shaft exposing the raw red underneath. Mother said it was a shame they couldn’t just castrate me. A nurse laughed and said I’d make a find gelding. Another nurse said that WOULD solve all my problems. The doctor agreed it would but said they’d need a medical reason.

It was so sore for weeks after that. I was angry at first. Mother gave me medicine so I couldn’t get anymore erections and to calm me down and make me behave. I stopped getting hard and I paid attention at school and got better grades. I did what Mother said. I know Mother did what was best for me and what I needed. With the medication and discipline I improved my behavior, got good grades and obeyed Mother. Like she always says, Mother knows best.

Mother said she should have arranged to have me gelded too so I wouldn’t need the medication. She said if I was gelded first it would have changed my behavior. She said she was pleased with my improvement and should of had me circumcised much sooner and saved a lot of trouble. I know she is correct. She looked at the pics they took and said my thing looks much better. Her friends agree. Circumcision was the best thing for me.

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This is kinda disgusting so please dont read this if you cant handle these things I guess, it’s hard to put this in words but I’ve been deeply desensitized for a long time and it’s only gotten worse, I always crave more tho, gore wasnt enough, disturbing people wasnt enough, I wanted more. When I was 12 years old I went to discord, I searched up “map discord servers” map meaning minor attracted person, and I found a server called the hideout, there were a few other victims, nikki, kairo, and rory, and the main p******** ig he was very known in the server, his real name is Andrew bell. He was grooming all of us, everyone would carve his name in their thighs, send nudes, and the server is still up to this day, full of child p***. But those kids were near my age, boring, so I went to another server and offered my nudes to get links to child p*** and surprisingly it was very easy to gain access to it, I got telegram and joined a group chat, watched child p*** and often masturbated to it, but then I got banned. I went insane, nothing was enough, until I found this guy who went by the name seti. He introduced me to zangi, a texting app. He added me to a group chat called the garden of eden, I was declared the leader of it, “the sluttiest girl” but I soon got bored of the attention, the snuff films or toddlers, the screams, the puffy parts. It wasnt enough anymore. I was then desensitized to child p***, I deleted the app, not because I was scared or regretted it but because I needed storage on my phone, there was so much I didnt have space to use anything. So I deleted it, I still miss it and wonder if I should find them and go back down that rabbit hole again, I know I s*** but I am now 14 about to go to high school and I have no idea what I am anymore, I need something more.

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