I was in 8th grade when I had a crush with one of my female friends and I was really confused ’bout the way I feel because I’m new to that feeling, I really don’t know when did it start, it’s like all of the sudden the way I looked at her changed, yeah. I still remember the first time I felt butterflies inside because of our intertwined hands, I know it’s not a big deal for her but for me..it was so ackward and I don’t even know what to react. I guess it’s not that I’m inlove or something, maybe just a light admiration because i really really admire her, ngl cuz she’s so pretty <3 and I just admire the way she talk, the way she smiles, they she do things so smooth, even though sometimes she's blunt and nasty. I am an introvert and she's an extrovert we are really opposite with each other and untill now I still wonder why we became close. Because I'm an introvert I like being alone, I only have few friends,I dislike social interactions, long conversation, and I don't want people to invade my personal space. I have trust issues, low confidence and I'm a very shy person. But when I'm with her I feel like it I can do things, I feel comfortable, it's like I'm in a safe because I know that she wouldn't judge me. When I'm with her I am confident and less shy. I just feel so happy with her. She not only gave me butterflies but also she help me grow, she made me believe in myself. I feel like I'm kinda linked to her because I always wanted to see her, maybe she's one of the reason why I only go to school,;D. Sometimes when I can't defend myself, she would probably stood up and speak for me. I admire her even more for that. Our school yeal would nearly end that time when the pandemic came, and we never met again in person. In 9th grade started our online class and yeah, we still see each other but we never talked. Now I'm in my 10th grade and we're still classmates but I don't if we were still friends, we never talked like we used to before except when it is for school purposes. I don't even know how we went like this. I'm sad and hurt. I miss her, I miss the way we do fun things, I miss everytime she lean her head on my shoulder and sleep when our boring teacher takes over the class, I miss the way we both go to cafeteria and eat breakfast together, I miss the way she shouts at the classroom when everyone is so noisy, I miss the way we shared lunch, I miss everytime we have our coffee dates while the teacher is discussing, I miss the way she calls me, I her, and i miss us miss But I guess she looked happy with her new friends and I'll be happy too for her.