WARNING: NOT SAFE FOR WORK OR KIDS! I smoked meth today. ~4 weeks after a significant mental breakdown due to recurring old situations repeating

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WARNING: NOT SAFE FOR WORK OR KIDS!

I smoked meth today. ~4 weeks after a significant mental breakdown due to recurring old situations repeating themselves.. unlearned lessons I thought I learned. The breakdown happened after about 3 months of daily smoking.. I didn’t even lie down for 15 days in one stretch.. pfft.. shockingly easy when the drugs are top quality and you never run out.. (thank you Dark Web and crypto bullruns hehe) and eating healthily & consistently most importantly.
But I lost my ability to love myself and life. Pain. I couldn’t live with myself or my pain or on this planet anymore. No faith in humans anymore. For a guy who loves life and every opportunity at my feet, I was pretty blinded by now..

But smoke today I did. And I drove 2 hours to get it. And then I posted to a dating app for a quick f***.. but I had my eye on going to a great brothel near my dealers house. Very hot ladies 24/7 😈.. called ahead.. the madam suggested both girls who were working at the time when I couldn’t decide which to book… In my methed up state I was f****** keen.. and decided… Both it would be, both for me 😎

Pulled up outside the brothel. Get a message on the dating app.. cutie who wants to f*** while the husband is away.. new to it all so she just wants highly anonymous, NSA, oral and f******. wants to see my c***.. i’m nervous but i’m also high, so i whip it out in the car on a masked video chat, at peak-time in the industrial estate !

Decide that, f*** yeah, this b**** is raw! She wants it bad. I drive an hour and 20 to get there, after being outside the brothel with guaranteed hot p****, and i do mean hot this particular place .. 😈

so off I go.. driving.. driving.. driving… finally get there.. get a message: oh, you know I’m trans right? I told you that yeah?
Me: Ummm.. I’m friends with some trans folk sure.

Strangely, I’m not nervous or off-put .. I must be REALLY HIGH… I’m actually totally f****** down. First gay experience ever, YESSSSSS. I’m going to a glory hole to f*** a trans woman in her glory hole wardrobe while “hubby” is away!

She didn’t want to use condoms, I asked if I am safe then?
Yes.
I have a son I need to be ok for..?
Yes.

Ok good enough for me, s*** my c*** and i’ll c** in your a** 😈 Honestly, I said in the reply message “let’s f*** and not get pregnant!”. I already have two boys to two women and both were accidents (but happy accidents!) so it really was a bonus.

I was told to come in the unlocked front door and come to the dark room near the balcony and proceed to get my c*** sucked.. she was gooood, somehow maybe she knew what i wanted? hahahaha.

oral turned to a*** and it was intense man.. a man being fucked in the a**.. i just felt less inhibited than with a woman.. like i didn’t need to hold back.. it was amazing!

he’d laid some amyl nitrate out on the dresser so i had a sniff and kept f******.. didn’t notice my heartrate go up.. then for the next 10 minutes we’re f****** standing up in the wardrobe and i’m now messy as hell… dominating his a** while slouched against the wall hahahahaha.. and then it was over.. time to go, definitely fun and definitely crazy experience.

but i’ll do something like that again, pure unbridled f******. hnnng.

New Confession

Julie Martz mcconnellsburg pa is currently incarcerated.
Online community listings state the following details regarding his status:
• Location: she is listed as an inmate at the Fulton County Department of Corrections located in McConnellsburg, Pennsylvania.
• Inmate Record: A reference his inmate ID as HY3457.

Julie martz knobsville/mcconnellsburg pa is a total compulsive liar and a lot lizard that will screw any guy and trucker that comes her way. She had NO respect for anyone at all, not even her own family. She cheated on her husband numerous times

she is a very sick women with STD’s, don’t trust her at all. She will stand there and lie to your face. she lives her life a lie. what a sad life to live.

She needs to grow up and STOP LYING! Julie martz is the McConnellsburg pa s***** lot lizard that works at giant food store mcconnellsburg pa … She is sick

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