I am 34 years old and not a great looking guy. I moved to a European country nearly two years ago to study. I had been single all of my life, I have never kissed anyone or had s** with anyone partly because I come from a third world country. I thought I could find a girlfriend but that did not happen. Eventually, I started working last year and with my second paycheck I finally worked up the nerve to visit an e*****. My first actual kiss was with an e*****, my first time having s** was with an e*****. Even though its against my religion. I felt finally in control of my own destiny, now I don’t look at couples in the park or the mall with jealousy and I now know, I can buy intimacy. I’m not without options. I feel better emotionally it also makes me feel a little sad, to have missed out on the simple pleasure of holding someone’s hand. Maybe I am one of the many men who will never find a wife and are destined to remain single. I guess that’s ok. But my family will never know.

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