I had s** with my boyfriend but I told him No like several times. I don’t feel like I was raped because I wanted it, I just didn’t know what other words to use to get him to listen to me or like take it easy. He’s super sweet to me and we have a lot in common. He just was in the heat of the moment and I dont regret anything. I just feel weird because he ignored me I guess. I wanted it slower or for him to just listen to me. It was my first time and now I’m sore and he told me he’s going to do it again tonight. But he didn’t ask. I think its going to hurt even worse because of the soreness that’s already there but he’s very rough and its hard to push him away because he gets so lost in the moment and because hes kind of intemidating. I dont know how to get him to listen to me. I just want it slow and passionate but I get the feeling that he thinks he’s in charge.