maybe I don’t deserve love, I call my friends so often it’s hard for me to think they are my actual friends because what if they are friends with me out of pity, what if I can’t wrap around my head that people have lives while I don’t. All the time I think I’m nice to everyone, why does no one like me or find me cool to hang out with. am I just undeserving of these things and refuse to believe them maybe I just need to stop and cut myself off from everyone. Maybe I don’t deserve someone else in my life who will have to deal with me for longer, maybe I don’t deserve to because I’m just too much of a nuisance to deal with.