I cut myself. I dunno why but I just like seeing my skin marred with scars, and blood, etc. And lately I’ve been very tempted to burn myself. Also, my eating & sleeping habits are kind of s*****. The only thing I eat is really unhealthy junk food or nothing at all. And I don’t drink water very often unless all the other drinking options are gross. My sleep schedule keeps changing. Like, I’ll go to bed early and actually fall asleep. Most of the time I can’t sleep though and I end up staying up late, til like, 1 am. And then to try to go back to a normal sleep schedule I’ll stay awake for two days straight and then go to bed early one night. (did that make sense? I hope so cause I have not slept for a couple days.) Another f*** up is I go days, weeks, without showering. And my room is always a disgusting mess to the point that there’s mice and spiders hiding out in here. Also I am very close to not graduating high school. If I don’t graduate who knows I might get thrown out of the house. Thinking about the future makes me wanna kill myself. I can’t talk to people and now I’m just complaining about stupid s*** on some website instead of getting professional help. Sorry.
