I don’t know what to do anymore, my mom died, my father found a new girl and left us, my older brother left for his own family, and I’m left behind to take care of my younger sister and brother. I’m 17 yrs old and I’m not yet eligible for full employment because I’m not 18+ . My mom’s savings are taken by my older brother, my dad doesn’t care about us and the three of us are left alone to fend for ourselves. Yesterday, my cousin got married and my father kicked us out of our own family home and gave it to my newlywed cousin as a wedding gift. My teacher at school helped us find a vacant room for rent. It’s hard, I try my hardest at everything I do, yet why am I kicked aside, why am I bullied at school, what did I do wrong to deserve this, my mom used to say that god helps those who are devout and answer their prayers. I prayed nonstop when my mother is sick and yet why did she die, I prayed for everything to stay normal and yet everything has fallen apart, I prayed for peace and yet I get bullied for trying too hard. I just want a life where I can eat food without worrying if we’re gonna starve at the end of the month, take a bath without worrying about the water bill, wear new clothes, eat good food, play cellphones like every dies at school. It’s just hard, even now as I type this in a cybercafe, I ponder upon the thought, “how nice would it be, if I could just disappear and go somewhere nice”
