I have a girlfriend of four months, and she’s such a sweet girl. She does absolutely everything and cares so much it’s sickening. But the thing is, I’m not happy, especially with her. I am diagnosed with depression, and do not know how to get over it, plus I refuse therapy. I have a childhood friend who, when I told her I had started dating this girl, she broke down into tears. Turns out she had feelings for me, and had for many many years. She told me it was okay and she’d be fine, but I knew that wasn’t it. Eventually I found myself thinking about how much I really cared about her. I ended up kissing her, twice, and never told my girlfriend. I want to break up, but don’t want to suffer the consequences that come from it, like the backlash of her overly protective friends and parents or the guilt that comes with that. I’m stuck between the girl I love and the girl I think I care about. Honestly I feel like a bad person. I’ve done this before, but did how I felt and ended up screwing everything up. I don’t know what to do and it’s killing me.
