to mic, I remember that night you said “i love adrenaline s**… some ideas of extreme sexports???” …you made me feel less then I should be next to your trucks and motors and mates. I feel like all I am to people is some girl who is fat and ugly.I am in a big fight over a little lie about a boy I like with my friend,and she told me today “I wish you would just die already.Aren’t you on anti-depressants?”IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE STREET ! iT WAS ALL MY FAULT THAT HE DIED THAT WAY.
Maybe Im just a mistake in life… suicide… one less ,.. one more. who cares? even i try to survive … im gonna die. Life is nothing but death. right? so… i should kill myself. I have 3 days to decide. The day youuu slipped away , i found it wont be the same. I keep asking why ? then all types of OBSESSIONS but also looking for *Fitness Fanatics *Tattoos*One Directioners- the serious OD’ers *Hello Kitty Fans* Disney*Comics*Anime*Paranormal*Wiccan*Love*Texting and Social Media Addicts*Sexting*Body Image*OCD*LSD**
All around me is so real. too real and I rather prefer my books. living them out and breathing them in because the nightmares are more real then real life for me for so long. I live a half world of stupor like an old drunk trying to reform
BLAST ** THIS ETERNAL FARSE **
i miss him… I know i cant do anything. But I can write right? Or is something bad to express your feelings? NO its not. this is for all the angels in the sky. This is for you…. my bit of color to all those dark times. THE PRICE I PAID FOR YOU THAT DAY.
I’m broken inside. I’m so lonesome I could cry. I’ve ever wanted to die and forget about everything that just happened. WHY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU , III MISS YOUUUUUUU SO BADD AND I HAVE NO HOPE , YOU ARE DEAD , JUST DEAD —– BROKEEEEN SO BADDDDDD — SO DEAD, I AM SO COLD.
sorry im a NOT girl NOT boy , i was the girl upstairs. the commented and complimentary model one.
kiss the rain… kiss it kiss the rain if you can feel it. feel it for me HE SAID THE LAST TIME WE WERE TOGETHER, THE RAIN FELL LIKE MY TEARS, THAT ONE B**** OF A NIGHT. no tears coming out? just broken inside. the little girl terrified She will leave her room If only skinny was there I loved you for three years but you picked her because I’m a size 12. cant cry cant think cant stop thinking about you cant stop listening to our song when I do I wanna cry but I cant you say you love me do you really mean it or is it a joke we are dating you do weed get drunk and it kinda bothers me but I don’t think you know that? the only think is I Love You Why? you treat me how I wanna be treated but you are always asking for “Pictures” then you say you are kidding but are you really ? Please just stop being complicated ? <3 like the fire of our mind and hell I try to avoid seeing you. that was why I wrote to you saying tell me about your bikes, your utes and tractors and cranes when you wrote to me OBSESSED AGAIN WITH A NEW OBSESSION you said every day to me for about almost a year "I really like tractors and im thinking of stealing one what should i do". I was trying to help to stop it happening again you and your adrenaline ports!!!!
