Nobody understands me. Everybody that I

Nobody understands me. Everybody that I know so far has pointed out at least one of my flaws and my friend uses them against me all the time. Everybody makes me feel that I shouldn’t be here. My friend even said that if I died she wouldn’t care because it would be less stress for her. I’m just tired of being caught in her pathetic games and constant fighting for nothing and having to smile or laugh when someone points out my flaws even though it really hurts. But whatever, I mean if I saw myself I wouldn’t like me much either unless I looked hard, but I am not saying that gives her rise to hurt me as I know deep down she is only battling me because she feels so useless herself and has to fight like the a beast she is to try to undercut me but it will not work this time. she only has been give away to me her negative feelings of uncertainty and weakness and insecurity because she has to battle someone almost anyone just to keep going. there are more men out there for her but she keeps trying to turn them against me for almost 20 years that is what our relationship has been based on. If you look at me, im a bright girl. If you see someone hurt me, you will see a girl that’s UNBREAKABLE. But inside, fall apart and try to hide those cracks and putty them together. I am a very outgoing girl in many ways but also reserved, and everyone thinks that I don’t get hurt by what other people say. But I DO. Sometimes I have to cry myself to sleep because of how I feel. I just wish someone cared about me. Both of my parents call me names and I lost my two friends because their ditching me for another friend who had benefits. I just wish someone actually understood.

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