My boyfriend and I both shoot heroin. I know it’s unfair to feel resentment towards him for my use because he didn’t force me to try it, but I feel like if he truley loved me then he never would have agreed to put that needle in my arm the first time and let me try it.
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My ex taught me about doing DXM, hydrocodone, codeine, and how to abuse my own prescriptions. He didn’t force me to do them, but it was something we started to do together. He also taught me to steal from people’s medicine cabinets and how to shoplift. If it wasn’t for him, I don’t think I would have gotten hooked on any of that stuff. He didn’t force me, but he sure as hell encouraged it. Because of him, I fucked my life up but good and even wound up with a drug charge against me. I resent the hell out of him for it and while I feel like it wasn’t totally his fault, it wasn’t all mine either.
All I can say is that you should break it off with your bf and while finding a way to quit heroin is probably a good idea, in the meantime I hope your bf is not your dealer, too. It’s hard to quit the people who supply and enable you, but it is possible.