It’s at that point. The point I was dreading.
I knew what we have is something short-lived. What we have is not based on something real. Just bytes, binary, and video. My heart no longer somersaults at the sight of new. I no longer feel as nervous. That should be a good thing. But for me it means, I have stopped obsessing about you…as much because I still constantly think of you.
This is the part that is making me all afraid. I don’t want to lose you. I want you. Though I haven’t been as appreciative, seeing you always makes me smile. Your silly jokes and antics. I like them. What we have seems to be the only normal, extraordinary thing in my unconventional, ordinary life.
Please don’t fade away. I hope this survives. until next time.
