I’m having an affair with my first love. I’ve been married to a wonderful person for 17 years, but this first boy and I have a connection that has lasted for over 20 years. I never stopped loving him and we kept in touch all these years when I knew we shouldn’t. I married my husband because he was stable and I needed that at the time, but I am dying inside. I’m not alive. My husband deserves better, he deserves someone better. I am trying to find a way to leave him despite this and despite the fact that I know my first love will ultimately break my heart and bring me down. He’s a wreck and a manipulator. I can’t help myself.
