I met this guy in this church group… I used to think he was a douchebag until a couple of days ago. He spoke to me during study hall.
I don’t know if anyone else understands the feeling I’m talking about, when you’ve spoken every right word and extracted the perfect responses. It rarely ever happens to me. When it does, I think about it for days. Mind you, I’m an introverted, nervous, shy, clumsy girl. I have an extremely hard time being myself around people. I normally can’t speak to another person without stuttering and saying something stupid.
Not this time. He was one of those special people I found myself being fluid and charming around. And everything he said was straight from my mind, almost creepily verbatim. I fell for his passion that I saw in myself; the passion that I felt the need to hide from others. I sunk deeper with every word he spoke, so in shock of how much his values matched mine that I almost turned to the girl sitting next to me as he was talking to us to say “I like him, I like him a lot.” Instead I just gave her a look like “this guy gets it” (whatever that means).
And as people left, it was just him and me at the main study table. I offered to take him home along with another girl across the room, but we didn’t leave until 2am. He became more and more attractive as I saw myself and everything I wanted to be in him. And whether or not he bonded with me, I bonded with him. He made my entire week.
Christians are told not to be romantically involved with non-Christians.
He doesn’t know I’m an atheist.
(and I haven’t been able to get him out of my mind)
