I feel like a cheat. I have been exposing myself in video chat rooms, m*********** on camera and c****** for anyone who cares to watch.
I’m married with children and try to justify my actions on the basis that my wife no longer has s***** desires. I love her very much but have my needs and so I do this depraved thing.
I’ve never cheated on her, that’s the truth but somehow, doing this, it feels as bad. I think people have different levels of desire and my wife and I are poles apart when it comes to s**. I should have shown more strength and simply accepted it rather than go online to get my kicks.
More recently I’ve noticed that younger females have watched me and I feel terribly bad about that. I ask them why and they tell me they like to watch. Still, it seems so wrong and yet I continued to w*** on camera for them until I was done. Truth is it was for my gratification, not theirs.
I’ve decided to stop and hope I can resist future temptations.
I don’t seek out anyone in particular and, we all know people lie about, well everything online, but I do believe some of these girls were under age and for that I feel terrible guilt. I hate myself for letting them see me do these things and getting off on it.
I’m not interested in meeting them, grooming them or having s** with them; I don’t want to know them, but I did enjoy that they wanted to watch me j*******.
It’s sick I know, and I want it to stop. I’m doing my best to beat it; I hope I can.
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I think sometimes all this sex stuff is like a replacement for the emotional intimacy shit that alot of us just don’t know how to do well? Exposing ourselves in one way to avoid to exposing ourselves in another? I hope you can figure out yourself, good luck.
better to expose yourself in a video chat room than expose yourself physically.