I feel full of sadness today. My family is in shambles. I have an alcoholic brother and a narcissistic sister who do nothing but burden my parents who are good people. I feel immense guilt that I can do nothing to help them. I feel even more guilt when I visit my parents and my father tells me how awful it is with my brother there, how burdened they are, how my mother is pushing herself too hard and is going to collapse one day. I cant tell him that in his own crankiness and misery he himself snaps at her, making her sad. I feel bad that all I want to do is get away, not hear it but I sit and listen knowing there is nothing I can do. I wish more for my mother. I wish she could have seen a little bit of the world like I have. I wish brother would be a parent to his kids instead of giving in to the bottle. I feel very alone in this world. I have close friends who are all married with kids, and its hard to connect with them sometimes about how I am feeling. Everyone’s answer is get marrried have kids. Maybe that isnt the answer for, and I want to stop feeling sad about something Im not even sure I want. I just feel……alone and lost.
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i feel for you. my situation is similar in a sense that both two my younger brothers are not doing anything with their lives and both my mom and dad are too shit scared to do anything about. the life i live is completely in isolation of the people and circumstances i know. whats worse is i’ve always felt alone. it’s hard to be told you’re tough, but it’s just an excuse of being forgotten.