i feel lonely sometimes …even though im surrounded by my friends and family… its this empty feeling inside of me that comes up every now and then and eats me up a bit, and at times i wish i could let my thoughts just quiet down…i wish some1 would come up to me and tell me, ASSURE me that everything is going to be alright wutever it is…. i know ive been missing something inside of me but i dont knw what it is exactly…
do i miss doing the things i love like hanging out with a close friend and just having tons of laughs? Maybe…
do i miss who i was, this silly (possibly embarrassing person :P) but always fun to be with? i think I still am that person…
do i miss feeling secure, or feeling at home? definitely, especially after some bad news I heard this year that changed the way I think about everything and actually taught me the true feeling of fear…
Do i miss him? I think i do miss him, talking to him, laughing , being with him, just him (the him I knew so well and who no matter what happened/happens I know ill always care about ) I miss the way he made me feel… but what does it matter? Im not sure he misses me
I keep trying though, to fill that gap, that emptiness… everyday: I put on a true smile (which tells me that im capable of being happy) and say alright today is going to be my day! I just can’t take being disappointed over and over again when I start out with these high expectations…So here you have it, ive confessed…
I don’t think theres something wrong with me or the way im feeling, if u were in my situation and found urself heartbroken soo many times I think ud feel the same…
But I wont be lonely and unhappy for long…itll all change; if not tomorrow then maybe next week or maybe summer, there’s no rush .
