My dad tried to kill me when I was 18 and he still hates me. He lashed out at me again and wouldn’t care of I killed myself. He says I’m not sick and the only proof that would convince him is if I died from the illness. I’m afraid to meet this boy because I’m afraid my dad will hurt him if he finds out who it is. So for his safety, I sacrifice my hapiness. I want to leave home but the only job that pays enough is stripping. I’ve been so mad at myself that my only choice is to kill myself or live and run away. My father has beat me all my life and I was bullied heavily in school. Everyone is against me and I have no one to support me if I run away. My father would rather run me over with his own car than ask me if I’m happy and what he can do to help. I would be the happiest if I could have the boy I like in my life but I’m too scared to get caught with him by my dad. They forbid dating but Im 21 and want to find love. Why must I be so unlucky that I have no freedom and parents that love me and protect me from danger. I wish I could find happiness and start a new life
