I hate myself soo much because I’m part of the worse race on the planet. I often wish that I was born as any other race but this one and often think about killing myself because of it. I’ve had others tell me how I will go to hell because of my race and how terrible I am because of what race I am. My embarrassment of what I am is the whole reason I now live as a recluse and barely ever leaving my house. I’ve have been pushing my friends away because of this as well. I mean who would a white person, or as others like to call it, white demon as a friend anyhow?