idek what im doing with my life anymore. It scares me that im not sure of what i want to do in the future, im probably going to end up a random t*** that noone even likes. My friends oh gosh. I dont like them, i dont know why i even hang around with them, but i feel scared on my own. Like someones watching me and judging me harshly, down to social anxiety i suppose, but its really scary. I recently died my hair a different colour, its dipdyed green and people at school ask if its for halloween and always ask about it, which i highly hate and makes me cry, i just feel insulted and abandoned and hated. My family ignire me all the time. I want to be on my own, with somebody i can tell everything and love truly, i dont want to live with my family, i want to do my own things without anyone caring, which they probably dont right now! But i think they do, and its scary. I hate it.