My boyfriend of 5 years and I were browsing the web together just scrolling through meme’s when we came across a girl confession bear saying she was cheated on by her guitarist boyfriend with the singer of the band he was in.
I tried not to read it or let it sink in, he tried to scroll past it. But it just hit way too close to home.
I don’t like going out or seeing people(introvert), but I don’t want that quality to rub off on him. I wanted him to have a social life so I let him go practice with a band… He, the guitarist, also cheated on me with the singer. I forgave him but to this day it still hurts.
So coming across that picture so suddenly, so unexpected hit me worse than I would have liked. We saw the picture. Kept scrolling. We were silent. I tried not to make any unusual uncomfortable movements/gestures. He kind of started talked about something else a bit more cheerful than normal, trying to keep my head up and I could feel it.
I had to get up because the tears were so full in my eyes they were bound to fall at any moment. Sometimes I get away with just tearing up and not having him notice but this was just falling too fast. I got up wiped myself off and he didn’t notice. I played it off until he came in and thought I was crying because I slightly burnt the meat that night.. I let him believe that’s why I was crying. . . for so long.