Stop with the f****** humming already. It’s not only aimless, with no tune attached to it, but it’s f****** LOUD.
My art therapist/group therapist and I were having an illegal affair. I would write secret messages to her and she would read them and respond to them in person. She would do favors i asked of her, like wearing outfits i asked her to wear, she’d even do me s***** favors. I made her a google drive full of p*** of me and then crafted a puzzle link to get to it that only she could have known. The link was a tinyurl with three phrases in the url that only she could have known. We would walk for an hour every day and swing at the park. I would write her poetry and play love songs for her every day. She broke the rules to play mario kart with me constantly when her boss was out. We had something magical. But she would never communicate directly with me because sge was afraid she’d lose her liscence to practice and her boyfriend and house, abd when I pushed her to unmask and be real, she told me I was wasting my time. Well that pissed me off and I crashed out a little abd she used that crash out to get me kicked out of my group therapy program. She wants out and I told her she’s not allowed to want out. I told her If she doesn’t reach out to me and continue this affair, that i will report her and get her liscence taken away and if that doesn’t work ill find some other way to ruin her life. You dont go from gooning in the bathroom at work to someone to throwing them away in the same week. Thats fucked. I’ll post her name here soon if she stays quiet and doesn’t reach out to me.
My girlfriend and I are opening up to non-monogamy and a few days ago we decided to give it a shot. She had matched with a few guys on Tinder and was invited to a Halloween party. I was at home when she called that she was going home but brought her date for the night. Asking to make the bed, put drinks ready and stay in the guest room for tonight. I have never felt this knot in my stomach. I was kind of aroused that it went so fast with her and she kicked me out of our bedroom for that night but I felt very stressed and it really hurt too. I heard them through the hallway for like 45mins until they went to sleep at like 2am. He left quite early and this morning at about 7am and she called for me to cuddle. I felt very vulnerable so I was happy to lay with her and cuddle. She kissed me and said she loved me. She is now still sleeping it off but I’m not sure if I can live like this