I hate myself. I feel like I can never live up to anyone’s expectations. Recently, over shadowing everything is my inability to do as well as I want to in school. It may seem like a poor reason to beat myself, since I already do well. But i feel like my best will never be good enough and I can never do as well as I intend. I constantly disappoint myself and I’m always wasting my time. When I study for tests, I always want to start early then I waste all of my time and have a mental break down 2 days before because there’s not enough time left. I’m always limiting myself and can never be smart rather than considerably smart. I shouldn’t, but I feel like I decay inside whenever I do stupid things like procrastinate, and freak out, sobbing, for a pitiful reason as such. I won’t be good enough. I expect so much of myself but I can only wish to be capable.