My mom completely targets me for everything. I do everything right. I try to get good grades, honor classes, I have responsibility and I just don’t bother her with anything. But I am still always blamed for everything. “Why am you not girlier, why don’t you have a boyfriend, why are your friends ugly, why are you ugly, why are you so stubborn”.
I live in constant fear. Because of her ive developed anxiety disorder and panic attacks, depression, and paranoia.
She threatened to kill me the other day. Calling me a b**** over and over and over again. A b****** and a b****. That’s what I am. She thinks I’m worthless. She regrets giving birth to me. And I honestly am overwhelmed with emotions because I cringe everytime she talks.
And I’m too the point of wanting to kill myself.