Its been two months since we broke up. Its been a month since I’ve talk to him. I just now realized that I really miss him. Was it wrong to choose not to be friends?
All I want to do it run up to him and yell out “no matter what I’ll always be your Kohai (underclassmen)! And even if I’ve been unnoticed, you’ll always be my Senpai (upperclassmen).”
But I can’t do that, can I? I would be so embarrassed, and I don’t know what kind of reaction he would have. He would probably ignore me, or pull me aside and tell me that I need to let it go. I didn’t even know if he wanted to stay friends.
I wish I could just move on, but I love him. I hate myself for loving him. He’s stupid, and chubby, and just so into games… I don’t even know why he even talked to me to begin with. Even so, I love him.
Should I keep trying to let my feelings go? Or should I fight to get him back?