I have never told anyone this but I need to get it out. I was in a mentally abusive relationship and after I had my 3 sons I got pregnant a few more times and I just could bring anymore children into this situation so I made myself have miscarriages. The guilt has been weighing on me and now my son has cancer and I feel God is punishing me. I just ask for forgiveness and wish I would of just gotten out of the relationship after my sons were born the mental abuse on me and them has caused anger and sadness in all of us
