Being fat is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. My nasty lumpy a**, my cellulite thighs, my back fat roll, my gut that hangs out even when I stand, my flabby arms……. the funny part is that the ONE place on my body that isn’t fat is my flat, flat chest, the only place fat doesn’t go on my body.. really? I even have a little double chin going. To top off the fat, I have terrible, acne prone skin… I’m pale, and I have dark, course body hair that is prone to cause ingrown hairs, especially in the bikini region… what the f***? And my hair is thin and won’t grow past my shoulder blades and looks fried no matter what I try. I have tried to lose the weight, tried EVERYTHING for the acne…. I just fail and fail and fail. I am hopeless. I am supposed to go on vacation in less than a month and I am going to be miserable every second… it’ll be hot, I’ll want to swim… and I can’t wear shorts or bikini’s in public, or any type of swim wear really. I am so white and my cellulite almost goes down to my knees. No one should have to be this unlucky in the genetic gene pool…. the aesthetic flaws in myself make me resent the fact that I am so healthy…. I’d rather be beautiful and ill than ugly and healthy…. that leads to mental unhealthiness which is 10 times worse than any somatic issue that may arise…