I should have told her that I love her
Every friday my art therapist would drink like 1.4 liters of water and hold her pee for me for like 130 minutes while we played dnd. She always had an opportunity to use the bathroom halfway through but wouldn’t because I didnt want her to. I also made videos of myself peeing for her and I have views logged from her watching them. When I first made her the folder of videos, I told her to go commando If she wanted more videos and that very day she went commando, like her coochie was full on eating her pants.
I carry one of the tanks of helium with me in my car as a way to stay calm. When I see the Fiserv buildings in the morning against the ominous midwestern skies, I just have to take a look at the tank to know that I am in control of my suffering and can end it. This gives me a mood boost and allows me to get through the day. Funny how that works.