I hate absolutely every aspect of my personality and of my looks. I really honestly am not pretty, it's not some clouded judgement and I just hope

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I hate absolutely every aspect of my personality and of my looks. I really honestly am not pretty, it’s not some clouded judgement and I just hope everyday that I’ll have the courage to end my life. The thought of having to study at university gives me anxiety, actually EVERYTHING that is slightly different from the norm does. I want to kill myself before my 20th birthday which is in October. I am suicidal since I’m 15 and had 4 complete therapies and talked to 9 therapists in total. I’m not young, dumb or have a clouded judgement. This is just what needs to happen, I’m a mistake, I don’t fit it anywhere. It feels like my life is just supposed to be this short.

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I was young. An older neighbor boy saw me playing in the backyard. I was alone. I don’t remember much except I was on the ground playing and looked up and he had his pants down and a big hardon about an inch from my face. He just held it there and I had no idea what was happening but I distinctly remember the smell of his balls and d***. It was a heavy musky odor. He left and that was it but the thought of that smell gets me hard to this day. Weird

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Does anyone here know Clark Thomas Hallisey? I’m an old friend of his, my name is Jermaine Johnson (my friends call me Jizzle Jermaine). CT sometimes goes by The Hallisonian or the Vanilla Gorilla.

Honestly he has a great backpussy and I miss busting off on him.