I try not to lie to anyone ever, except for this one person online. She's a controlling person and it's a toxic friendship so I lie to her constantly so I

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I try not to lie to anyone ever, except for this one person online. She’s a controlling person and it’s a toxic friendship so I lie to her constantly so I can avoid having to talk to her or interact with her. I don’t want her to know what’s going on in my life because I feel like it’ll give her more power over me. In the past I , for some reason, had no problem telling her where I was and what I was doing all the time. For some reason I was an idiot and didn’t think it was strange that she always asked to know. Then she started acting jealous when I would do something with a RL friend, or when I started spending time with my now husband. I began to see that she had been controlling me and I still struggle with it.

I haven’t been able to totally break away and get her completely out of my life yet. I still feel guilty every time I lie and tell her I’m busy or not feeling well, so I can’t get on skype or whatever. I’ll still end up thinking about how she upsets me even when I’m not talking to her, and it can ruin a good time for me. So she does still have power over me. I always feel her looming over me like a dark cloud.

I can’t just cut off contact because I was stupid enough to share my phone number and address with her. She is also friends on fb with several of my family and friends. It’s like I can never escape. I’m afraid if I cut her off she could do something drastic to cause problems/harm to me or my loved ones. It’s that serious.

She tells me all the time that I’m the only friend she has and our conversations are the only thing that makes her happy in her miserable life. I used to think I was being a good person by being her friend nut now I realize she has serious issues. Why is she, a woman in her 50s with a husband, so dependent on an online friend who is over 20 years younger than her? Why does she get so mad when I try to have a life? Even when something goes well for me she acts like it’s no big deal. She always wants my pity.

DONT EVER GIVE OUT YOUR INFO TO AN ONLINE FRIEND NO MATTER HOW LONG YOU’VE BEEN CHATTING OR HOW GOOD YOU THINK YOUR FRIENDSHIP IS! The internet is a place to meet GREAT people, but there are people out there who know how to play you. We were friends online for like 5 years before I ever started having issues and seeing the truth.

New Confession

I was young. An older neighbor boy saw me playing in the backyard. I was alone. I don’t remember much except I was on the ground playing and looked up and he had his pants down and a big hardon about an inch from my face. He just held it there and I had no idea what was happening but I distinctly remember the smell of his balls and d***. It was a heavy musky odor. He left and that was it but the thought of that smell gets me hard to this day. Weird

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Does anyone here know Clark Thomas Hallisey? I’m an old friend of his, my name is Jermaine Johnson (my friends call me Jizzle Jermaine). CT sometimes goes by The Hallisonian or the Vanilla Gorilla.

Honestly he has a great backpussy and I miss busting off on him.