I think my husband’s having an emotional affair.. he’s always on his phone, on yahoo messenger or skype, and he deletes messages in case I see his phone. Whenever I’m around him and he’s on his phone, he hides it so I can’t see the screen. It makes me feel so horrible, that he’d rather spend his time with a random woman (or women, I don’t know) online. And I’m way too scared to tell him. We’ve been through hell with visas and moving countries just to be together, and now it feels like I come after these women that I know he talks to online.
A few years ago, while we were living in different countries because of visa issues and he was visiting me, he was logged in to his yahoo account on my iPod and he didn’t log out by accident. So when I went to check my mail, I saw his.. he had written to a woman that “even though I’m in a different country, I’m thinking of you”. And he signed it with “I love you”. I was so hurt, but I didn’t dare say anything in case he got mad that I’d been snooping. Now I wish I’d said something, but it’s too late. And although I don’t know the backstory of that email, or if he’s even still talking to her, I get so upset inside whenever he’s on his phone or his computer. It’s the worst feeling.