I went to a counselor several years ago to share things I never shared with anyone. It was so freeing. I’m convinced that my Faith in God and my counselors rescued me. My entire adult life I would seek out the worst men to date\get engaed to etc. I went thru EMDR therapy with my counselor, which is designed for trauma processing. I shared with her things I never told anyone. I told my counselor I was the emotional and at times physically abused by m mother and called every name in the book. I’ve also processed and released a dif trauma too. I’ve done countless photo shoots, have a professional career and many talents yet would seek out men who were abusive, addicts, etc… I truly thought I was ugly and unworthy even though my photos have even been in magazines. I have forgiven my mother but it’s a polite but not close relationship. My aunt told me everyone loves me to bits but I struggle daily with esteem. However I’m a victor and not a victim. Amen