I’m in my 20’s, and battled depression in my teenage years. All my family and friends who know I ‘used to’ self harm think I have been going good and haven’t harmed in a while, but they don’t know that secretly I still do it. It’s no longer a coping thing, it’s something I secretly do for the rush, like someone who skydives. The only one who knows is my partner, who secretly approves because he is a masochist and loves for me to give him pain too. We haven’t done anything extensively bad in the past, or i the bedroom, but I have even done an extensive first aid course under the pretense of it being for my job so that we don’t have to go to the doctor for cuts or burns. I also feel like this is all fine as we both consent and there are many weird things in the world people like, but society as a rule wont understand.