I am still very much stuck on girl. I guess you could say I’m in love with her. I go online and pretend we are together in a relationship. I go about my day imagining conversations with her and how she’d react and it makes me smile. I guess it is easier to pretend than face reality. The truth is we haven’t spoke in over four years. One of our last conversations was an argument. She was very upset with me and told me to eff off and never speak to her again. She made it a point to go out of her way to ignore me. For example if we were in a room, she would say hello to everyone-but me. Shortly after I lost contact with her, actually she deleted me. She is currently living in another country a few thousand miles from me. I still have this pathetic dream of moving to where she is, reconnecting with her, and starting again. But who knows? The truth is she likely hates me and wants nothing more to do with me. I have also considered she might be in a relationship with someone else, and worst case scenario already married. I am so pathetic! :-/
