So I have a problem. I am a girl with a boyfriend who I have been with for a few years, very happily. Not long been out of college and moved back to my hometown with my bf.
I recently got back in touch with a friend from high school. I was always kinda surprised she ever was nice to me as we hung out in totally different circles. She was with the cool beautiful people – I was in the alternative group.
Anyway, we lost touch and I we just got back in touch and have been emailing and messaging almost daily – with the messages being anything from 1 – 50 per day. We have only communicated via net or whatever, haven’t met up. Now as I said, I always liked her as a friend as she was just an awesome person. She told me since we got back in touch that is actually gay. I don’t know why but it got me thinking about her.
During these emails and stuff we have got to know each other pretty well. By nature I am a pretty flirty person but have never ever cheated – so part of me is to blame. She has told me she is ‘into’ me latterly.
So, I realised the other day that I have been having an emotional affair with this girl. I think I have started to fall for her.
Nothing has happened but it has fucked my head up. I have always been so happy yet now I find myself deeply sad. Its ruining my relationship with my boyfriend too and he has no idea why I have been so distant.
I have never been with a girl but I have certainly thought about it with her.
I think I know what I need to do but I just can’t. Is there a way we can just be friends again after this? What should I do?