Even if I have a partner, I feel like I have no one to talk to. I feel guilty and am somewhat suffering in silence while trying to help my partner who is down. I feel like I myself am not emotionally and mentally strong enough to deal with this. Things used to be amazing but now it’s getting harder and harder. My own personal life is also going down the drain because of my personal lack of motivation and negligence. I find myself lying so much that I have lost who I really am. I feel fragmented and part of me is yearning to embrace my forgotten other half. I have done terrible things. I smile to mask how turbulent everything is under the surface. I feel tired and worn and exhausted. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time.
