I'm not what to do anymore." Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems" but my problems aren't temporary. I'm unattractive, I'm shy, I'm an

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I’m not what to do anymore.” Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems” but my problems aren’t temporary. I’m unattractive, I’m shy, I’m an idiot. Dying seems great to be honest cause you won’t feel anything anymore. It’d like leaving everything behind. I guess I’m suicidal, I cry everyday because I see my life and its sad and pathetic. Everyone else seems happy. Even if they’re not happy they have love ones to support them. To think all I esnr to do in this works is help people, but I can’t even help myself. I just can’t go on everyday pretending to be happy. I don’t want to wait this out anymore I want to be happy with myself again. I want to look past my imperfections and be me again… I need a makeover I need to completely forget my old self and start over with a new and improved me. But I can’t, not by my self at least. Someone help me. Because I’m lost and I need someone. My name is Saul and I’m giving up. Sad how I’m barely 16 and I’m okay with dying this early on in life. All those experiences left to experience… I should be happy why am I not happy? If you read this I hope you can help me. Because I’ve lost all hope. 7381

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From “Etobicoke Life Magazine”
March 1999

“Walmart Workers Busted”

“A number of Walmart workers have been charged with theft of over $10,000….investigators used video evidence….workers removed security tags from VCRs….

Charged is J— Jasenec, age 24 and ……”

1. Etobicoke Life Magazine has been defunct since 2002, but you can research it at the Toronto Reference Library

2. This took place at the Honeydale Walmart

3. F*** YOU Sister Marie Howorth!! You had no f***** right to ask me private questions about my father’s death! The school board takes MY SIDE and even APOLOGIZED!!!

4. F*** YOU Judy W!!! F*** YOU Yvonne K!!!! Cause my mamma taught me NOT to steal! I was always an honest Bay girl! 😉

5. My father verbally abused my mother and my life was happier without him. Stop attaching everything I do to his death.

6.F*** YOU ALL in number 4 for attacking my ability on having empathy for strangers who die young or suffer. Having empathy for a stranger is not a bad thing. You think your Jesus would agree with you or me on that one?

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