I am sitting in my bed, her head laying on my chest. I can feel her heart beating away, feel her smile as she dreams and even feel a warmth spreading throughout my heart. It seems as if time has stopped. Surely, nothing could ruin this utterly beautiful moment in my life. Pulling her close, her eyes fluttered open, questioning me with her sparkling brown eyes. “What’s wrong?..” I kissed her forehead as I always do reassuring her that nothing was wrong. In fact, everything was perfect.
Holding her close, I began to feel it. My stomach slowly growing heavy, and a single tear escaped my eyes. Soon enough, rivers came flowing down my cheeks as she smiles at me, caressing my cheek with her hands.
“Its ok.”
“I know.”
And with that, I open my eyes. Looking to my right, I see a naked man laying next to me. Of course, the only time I could love her, was in my dreams.
She loved me once, but couldn’t anymore because of her mother. Her mother who disapproved of our relationship. A girl can never love another girl, it is a sin, loving is a sin. It’s been 2 years. Countless of men, flowing in and out but none can compare to her. Oh, what a cruel world it is, to only love in dreams and feel nothing in reality.
~Khana~