Everything I do and everythig I am is just an act. I don’t have a personality and I’m morphing into characters and people I admire but hardly anyone notices, people think I’m charming, funny and interesting but I’m always playing a role, always! I’m choosing my personality traits, hobbies, eating habits, way of talking, etc based on the person I wanna be at the moment.
Also I’m a huge stalker, it’s so easy to gather information like timetables, home adresses, phone numbers, … and I always manage to befriend the people I pick, sometimes I’m just becoming friends with someone cause they were essential for one point in my plan; and it works, it all works way too well!
I have no idea who the real me is, just that she is slowly turning nuts; depression, cutting, panic attacks, making myself vomit, … I’m just waiting for the paracusia to start and the worst thing is that I’m not even sure that I didn’t choose to turn crazy.