Laundry List:
I’ve lost all confidence in myself.
I struggle with losing weight due to lack of motivation and I don’t ever push myself as far as I know I can go. I’d look great if I could commit because I honestly don’t have far to go.
I feel I can’t travel alone internationally so I don’t ever feel like I’d enjoy myself as much as I’d like to go and travel.
My credit is semi-bad so I fear I won’t finish school because I won’t get approved for a student loan and my parental unit won’t help me even though the other one has passed away.
The person I’d love to spend time with is a brick wall and I fear I push those who do want to spend time with me, away.
I am scared to let any sort of new partner in my life. The one above I speak of is one I trust but we are in no way even close to a relationship again. Not sure if that person deserves me anyway. For some reason I cannot stop thinking of them, even if I am out with someone new.
I have a hard time picturing the future and that scares me.
I sometimes wonder what my purpose is in life right now. I’m not suicidal but I am very depressed and my friends don’t understand.
I’m better at being alone than in a big group of people.
I don’t know how to fix my biggest flaw – figuring out what I love doing. I don’t know what I love doing. There are things I like, but nothing I love. This also scares me.
Not sure what to do… where to go…
I want to experience things that are out of the ordinary but I can’t find anyone to do them with that I’d enjoy doing them with and I can’t bring myself to do them alone.
I shouldn’t say this, but I am not enjoying life and I haven’t been for quite a long time and I don’t know how to fix it. I hate it right now.